Mid week motivation

Here’s a little mid week motivation for you...

Give that person a smile or a wave when you pass them in the grocery store, just do it. You could make them feel amazing! And you should know that the kindness that you are spreading through a simple smile, will multiply for miles!

You never know what someone else is going through. Do everything with kindness in your heart, and I guarantee you will get some in return!

Be kind, always.

-M

Everything will be okay.

I usually don’t write posts like this, but it’s been weighing heavy on me and God has been calling me to start sharing my life and my journey in hopes to maybe help someone else. My FA is slowly getting worse. It is getting harder to do simple things and it takes longer to do everyday tasks. I am more and more off balanced every time I go out. It takes every ounce of energy to just stand up. And that’s just the tip of the iceberg.

Yesterday was the first time that I used my walking stick to help with stability. I wasn’t sure how this was supposed to help me stay upright, but I gave it a try with a very close mind. FA takes a tole on you not only physically but emotionally and mentally too. I always told myself I shouldn’t cry, crying makes me seem weak. So I would be stoic and strong and cry alone but I wouldn’t do it often. Then I would explode...and be an emotional wreck and push the people closest to me away. Every time I have that explosion of emotions I would feel better after. I’d feel hopeful, and It seemed like after I cried I would see the world differently. Better. 

Human tears contain a natural painkiller called leucine enkephalins. Which is why you feel better after you cry. Cry. It will be okay. Having a bad day? It will be okay. FA absolutely sucks. Slowly losing my abilities absolutely sucks. But. It will be okay. I know I am strong..the Lord is strong and mighty and he only gives his hardest battles to his strongest soldiers.

Everything will be okay.

-M

High School Graduation

These past 2 weeks have been a complete world win. We have had family in town, parties, and lots of fun. I am officially a high school graduate. It been a tough ride and I could not have done any of it without the help of my family and loved ones. They are my rocks. They hold me afloat when I feel like I am drowning. I love them all from the bottom of my heart.

Walking is difficult for me and I need assistance but I was determined to walk across stage and receive my diploma. I was incredibly nervous, but I did it and it all went smoothly and I was pretty proud of myself.

I was excited about the ceremony but was more excited about the party. It turned out great and was an absolute blast!

and to top it all off....my brother broke his nose at the party! 

(he is fine!)

-M

It's been a while...

It has been a minute since I have posted on here. Whenever I would post on here I kinda felt more organized and structured and for a while things have just been hectic in my life and I am kinda sad that I didn't really prioritize the time to document things on here. I am really going to schedule my time to blog because i love writing and keep a journal in a way.

So first off I am finally finished high school and am on summer break. I graduate in about 2 and a half weeks. YAYY! A lot of my time was being used up to focus on school. My plan after graduation is to take a semester off.  Many people have told me that is a bad idea, that I will get to comfortable, but I really need to start driving. and I know you are probably thinking "you are 18! and you do not drive yet?" no I do not drive yet. I do have my permit, but I have a huge fear when I get behind the wheel and it just makes me very anxious. But it is just a hurdle that I know I can cross and get over. 

After I can drive it will give me a lot more independence and I will not have to rely on anyone to get from place to place or to college classes. I am wanting to get my teaching degree in elementary education, to become a 4th or 5th grade teacher. So a few more updates will be coming soon.

I am really excited to be back to blogging and document everything on here. That's all for now!

-M